Dam this is hareder then i realy thought it would be. I mean i know it is for our health,but i dont know who long i can hold on. My weight is my biggest issue ever (has been all my life, even as a younster growen up) my weight has been an on goen battle, and it will be till i die. I know people say "Dont let this take over your life", To all of you geuss what it has it always has and it always will. I geuss until you walk in my shoe's you will not fully understand what i have, and am going through. Sure you say"I understand", but do you realy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Answer is "NO". On both side's of my family tree, is obesatie,(it hurt's so bad that yes i am cryen right now!!!!!). For people like me no doctor wants too help,instead they say"You are over weight your boob's are too big,you are starting to look like your dad, you will beheading for a heart attack" But the real thing that get's me is this one,"But doc it is the medication you put me on, i have told you in the past that it causes weight gain" the answeris this" Well what are you going too do about is???????" For got sake's people all aroungd me including family member's are haven this gasteric bypass surgery,and me i have been worken my fucken ass off to loss on my own, and with no advail of help. Were is the justice for MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

One of the reason's i will agree to some of my weigt gain is do to my back surgery, and that was a joke, I have a herretitary dejeneratedjoint dasses, so yes i can't do much, causeof the pain.Yes the pain,it stopes me from doing the thing's i once could do.That is why it is so hard for me to stop smoken, that is my craving stoper(to stop eating). Yep smoking is not healthy! But nether is Obescatiy! It is a now win win situation! have any answr

This is my second day without a cig. I have smoked for 31years. I first started when i was 11years old. It is a bad habit,and an even hareder one to break. What is nice about it is , my husbasnd is doing it with me . Wow i never thought that would ever happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday i cleaned the whole house,and all the laundery.While my daughter slept till noon(TARA)!!!!!!! Hummmm it would benice to be young agin. So i could think twice about my now future. LOL! LOL!. But realy life is hard and you will al;ways have absticlesin the way. So charrish what we have because when they are grown up and moved away, you look at your life and ask"Where did it all go,and i wish they where young agin"